AndreaJacobs

Okay so my weight is up again because I am full of water weight. I gained almost 10 pounds of water weight this month. Some of that comes from TOM visiting this week; but some of it comes from my digestive issues. I seriously can’t waity until the 11th of this month and my doctors visit.

So this month I am not listening at all to the scale and I am listening only to my measurements. Today was my once a month measurement day:

Last month:
Neck: 14 in.
Bust: 46 in.
Waist: 47.75
Hips: 50.5
Thighs:26 in.

This month:
Neck: 13.5 (1/2 inch loss)
Bust: 44 in. (4 in. loss)
Waist: 47 in (.75 in. loss)
Hips: 49.5 in (1 in. loss)
Thighs: 25 (1 in. loss)

Total inches lost all around is 7 and 1/4 inches lost. I am happy with these measurements. It proves that I losing weight even if the scale isn’t saying so. I am bloated from all the water weight so I am not sure how reliable these measurements are. But since it shows a loss I am hanging on to it.

Okay so I know some of you have listened to me complain that I am not losing as much weight as I want or think I should. I bust my butt but it is not budging the scale.  I was talking to my Mom the other day about my digestive issues.  I don’t process food like I should. I think I have either IBS or possibly an issue with my blood sugar. I was diagnosed with hypoglacemia (sp?) when I was a little girl. What that means is my body produces to much gluclose (sp?) and so my sugar levels are often to low. The doctor then said eventually I would end up diabetic because my kidneys would just get wore out.  So I am going to have my new doctor check out all this stuff. I am just so bloated and crampy I can’t stand it anyomore. In three days I gained like 5 pounds of water weight.  I am so hoping that the doctor can do something about it. I am also a little scared.  I hope nothing serious is wrong. I can’t get in until the 11th of this month so I guess I’ll just have to wait and see.

So I went shopping for some new clothes for the school year. Most of my shirts are to big and I was swimming in them. As I was looking for shirts my fiance suggested I buy a new pair of jeans as well because the pairs I have need to be belted or else they fall off me. So I used to be a size 23-24 depending on the cut of the jean. I grabbed a size 20 and a size 18 and went into the dressing room. I thought I would try the size 18 on just for fun; not actually thinking they would fit.

They not only fit they look good on me. I am so darn happy I seriously could burst. It is also nice to have some shirts that actually fit instead of feeling like I am swimming. My poor fiance came with me and helped me pick out clothes. I am horrible at fashion and he is an artist; so I let him go wild and pick and choose out of what he grabs.

School starts next week and I can’t wait. My classroom is almost done and I am ready to meet my new munchkins.

Okay so those of you that know me know that I am a workout nut. I just love that feeling of adrenaline. I was working out six days a week. When I work out I do it for 70-90 minutes depending on how I am feeling; and I burn 900-1100 calories depending on how long I work out. So recently I was talking to my fiance and he seems to think the reason why I am not losing as much weight is because I am not giving my body time to rest. So this week I only worked out for five days. For two of those days I worked out for 90 minutes burning 1100 calories and three of those days I did 70 minutes burning 900 calories.

So my question is; how many days do you work out? Also do you think it is important to takes some days off or should I work out seven days a week?

Jumping and and Down!!!

I lost another pound today:).

Six more to go to reach my mini goal. It is really beginning to look like it possible. I have come to peace with the idea of it not; however I will be so damn happy if it does.

School starts next week. I was finally allowed in my portable on Monday. I have it almost done just a little bit of cosmetic stuff to do. I am happy that we have our own keys because then I can go on the weekend. My fiance and I are going school clothes shopping on Sunday. I am not going to buy pants though because I know I will just have to turn around and buy more a few weeks from now. So I primarily going to buy shirts. I hate shopping; I hate the crowds and all the noise. But my love for new clothes is overriding that hate LOL. I will post pictures of my portable and some of new clothes when I can.

Okay so my mood is a lot better. I apologize for my posts about being grumpy. Sometimes it just gets so darn hard.

But on a better note I lost another pound LOL. So that means seven more pounds to go. I am not sure if I will make my summer mini goal of 30 pounds (only 7 more to go); but I am sure not giving up without a fight!

So I am also a member of sparkpeople.com. That is where I post all my food intake and my work outs. The only reason I do it there is that I like how it breaks up all the nutrients you need and tells you where you are at. Well anyhow; if you are on there you know that they have American Spark Minutes when it comes to working out. They go from state to state, and city to city; and posts the top work out people. Well guess what; in Salt Lake City I am in 2nd place with 1185 minutes this month. In Utah I am in 10th place. That is freakin awesome. I am sorry I know I am huge geek and that it isn’t a competition but it makes me feel good to see my name up there. I went so long without working out; and making excuses. To seeing my name in the top ten for working out minutes in the whole state of Utah!! Bootie Bounce LOL

I hope everyone is doing good. I have noticed that a lot of us are being hard on ourselves so I though this would be good for us: You must finish this statement with one nice thing about your self.

I am….

I’ll start: I am looking sexy LOL

I am starting this in the hopes of better my attitude and outlook on things. So I will start it out.

Tomorrow I will do better by being more open-minded.

Okay so I took a walk with the dog to clear my head. If you read my last post than you know I was/am grumpy about not really feeling like I am doing any good. I feel like I work my butt off for nothing. I am eating right, not cheating, working out regularly; but I am still not where I wanted to be. I feel like such a damn failure that I can’t see straight. I think the biggest problem is that I have a huge problem with water weight. It fluctuates so much throughout the darn month I can’t figure out where I am half the time. And don’t tell me to drink my water or I may scream. I already drink 10-12 cups of water a day. I have a Nalgene bottle and I measure out my water that way. I think I am just having one of those I suck days. I just got off that smoothie diet that I was trying and towards the end of it I was retaining anything that i put in my body because I wasn’t getting enough. I know that will take a least a few days to correct itself. I think I just want a miracle to happen. You read so often on here about people who lose 5 pounds of of no where. I want one of those miraculous weight loss things to happen for me! When is it my turn!

I know I will lose the weight I have no doubt about that. I think I would just like to see something happen sooner rather than later. Am I working out to much? I work out 6 days a week and burn approximately 5500 calories a week. Is that to much? I eat enough calories to sustain that; so I should be fine right. I take one day off to relax and recoup like I should. Thanks to sparkpeople.com I know how many calories i should be eating. In fact if you are on that site as well you know how they break up the work out minutes for each city. I even made second place for my city and have remained in second place. I mean second place for the whole city of Salt Lake; that is a big accomplishment. So why can’t I just be happy? Why am I letting losing this weight rule my entire life. I think the biggest reason is I am sick and tired of feeling like a fat loser. I am sick and tired of working my butt off and getting now where.

Today I am just grumpy and fed up. It seems like nothing I do is working and so I feel like a fat pathetic excuse for a person. I just changed my diet back to normal yesterday; before I was trying a smoothie diet (frozen fruit, yogurt, honey, orange juice, half n’ half); I replace two meals with the smoothie and then had a sensible dinner. They were good an all; I just wasn’t reaching my goals with calories, protein, fat. Basically I wasn’t reaching any goal except fiber. I so want to reach my goal by the end of August but I don’t see it happening anymore.

How long does it take the body to stop thinking it is starving? That is what I think was beginning to happen on that smoothie diet because the last week I have bloated all up and I am retaining everything. So yesterday I ate like I should and met all my goals, and I plan on continuing today. So will my body need a few days to recover or should it happen right away?

I am not giving up! I am just so darn frustrated and angry.

So I think I am going back to regular eating instead of the fruit smoothies for two meals thing. The first few days were great. The sensible meal I was eating had tons of protein and I was even meeting my fiber goal. However; after that I was finding it hard to meat my bare minimum calorie goal and I wasn’t meeting my protein or carb goal at all. Last night I noticed that my body was starting to retain things and I am fearing my body is going into starvation mode. So as a good girl I am kicking that idea to the curb. Today is a day that not only meats my goals but I am way below by sodium goal so that should help with the water weight. I just want to meet this summer mini goal so bad. I know I can do it darn it. At the end of the school year some of the teachers on my third grade team told me they didn’t think I could do it. Telling me I can’t do something; after all I have been through in life; is like putting cold water in hot grease. So in some way I feel that if I can’t do it than I am a failure in some way. I am still sticking to Nancy’s no eating after 10 p.m. I have been doing it for four days now. The first two days were hard; all I wanted to was snack but I held strong. Now it is almost like my body knows to shut itself off at 10 p.m.

So give me some advice! What can I do to ensure my weight loss happens. I am already down 2 of the last 10 pounds; so only eight more to go. That is once I get rid of all this water weight. I really wanna see it happen. I work out six days a week and burn 900 calories for five of those days; than on the sixth day I do a little extra and burn 1100 calories. So in total about 5500 calories in a week. Once I get back to my regular regime; I will be eating about 1780-2030 calories in a day (sparkpeople.com is where I got that number).